Losing It

I am 4 months and 4 days postpartum.

Since having Emily, I have lost my baby weight, making it back to my pre-pregnancy weight… and then I gained it all back.

I gained back 12 pounds in 4 months.

That is NOT a good feeling. I am not carrying it in my arms, or legs, or butt… but in my GUT. My belly is a foreign country compared to the rest of my body.

Yes, I grew a human. Yes, my body went through severe trauma with having a c-section. Yes, my body will never look the same as it did prior to delivering Emily. And I don’t want it to… but I am not happy with the body I have now.

I am proud of what my body went through to bring our baby girl into this world, but that doesn’t mean I am okay with the number on the scale. It doesn’t mean I am okay with my diastasis recti or my mommy fupa. I don’t hate my body- but I want to make it something that I can look into the mirror and say, “This body delivered a baby. This body is strong. I can play with my daughter. I won’t get tired running around at the park or going sledding. This is the body that I am proud to show off.”

It has been well over a year since I have done any strenuous physical activity. This month. February. I began my workout with Blogilates.

I have NEVER been one to sway from workout classes/trainers. I cannot go to the gym and create a workout on my own. I need motivation. I need someone pushing me to do the last squat or pushup. I mean, I was a dancer for 18 years, competitive for 12 of those. I know a thing or two about structure.

Cassey Ho is INCREDIBLE! I had never done a pilates class before, and LET. ME. TELL. YOU. 4 months postpartum or not, she KICKED MY ASS!

I started last week with a quick tone challenge from her as I awaited her February workout calendar to drop. I swear I thought all of my limbs were going to fall off.

At one point during her No Weights Arm Sculpting challenge, I took a wine break… have I reached peak mom? Pilates and wine…? Send help.

I am so excited and proud of myself for deciding to truly get back into shape. Connor and I have changed our eating habits tremendously and now it is time to incorporate physical activity. I want my daughter to be motivated by her mothers motivation. And I truly believe that she will.

Stay tuned each week as I update you on my weight loss journey!

February 2nd, 2021: 163 lbs and change.

Goal weight: 130 lbs.

Let’s go.

What’s a Mom to Wear?

Never in a million years would I have thought that my maternity wardrobe would be the most important wardrobe I have!

I’ll admit, I got a little finger trigger happy early on in my pregnancy and bought maternity clothes when I certainly didn’t need them yet. Being a first time mom, I expected my stomach to balloon up within the first 2 months, and I ordered just like that. In truth, I didn’t start getting a real pregnancy belly until about week 16 or 17, 4 months into my pregnancy.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I wore the tiny crap out of those maternity clothes! I wear them even better now that there is a belly to fill those shirts and dresses.

I spent a lot of time choosing maternity clothes and exploring different websites for the best clothes AND the best deals. But let’s be real… if it’s cute, I’m buying it!

When shopping for any wardrobe, it’s important to keep the must-haves in mind. Many people call this a “capsule wardrobe“. If you are a shopaholic like me, this helps to clear our your wardrobe while only keeping the essentials, and keeping items that you can mix and match every day of the week.

Lady DeCluttered Summer 2019 Capsule

I LOVE clothes. Like, love! I have always been one to shop high-end at low-budget stores (Target, Kohls, and sometimes even WalMart). I found it very difficult at the beginning of ny pregnancy to find maternity clothing that was both hella cute and hella affordable. I scoured the internet trying to find outfits that I could wear both throughout the 7 more months of my pregnancy and postpartum. I am ALL for versitile!

The first website I stumbled upon was Motherhood Maternity. Motherhood ofers a wide variety of maternity fashion, but it really hits home with the basics. I was able to get some amazing Secret Fit Belly jeans and jeggings, nursing bras (which are the most comfortable bras I have EVER worn), Graphic Tees, and Scooped Neck Maternity Tank Tops for a very inexpensive price. Check out the gallery below for photos of my favorite Motherhood items!

As I was searching for clothes a little higher priced, I found Pink Blush. Pink Blush is AMAZING because they not only have a plethora of maternity clothes, but they also have a section for non-pregnant women. Their clothes are perfect for during pregnancy and after, so I know that they will get the proper use out of them. Pink Blush is great for baby shower dresses and flowy, patterened pants. I even got the dress I got married in from Pink Blush! Check out the gallery below for photos of my favorite Pink Blush items!

Now that I had a few basics and a few special occasion picks out of the way, it was time to get the clothes that would get me through the hot New England summer- clothes that would be able to be easy to put on, versitile, be used after pregnancy, but still retain their cuteness. I went to Target and Amazon for those picks. It took a bit of sleuthing to find, but the simple, side-rouched dresses as these two stores were PERFECT and were exactly what I was looking for. Amazon had a dress that came in over 20 different patterns and colors, so you know I stocked up on those. I paired these simple dresses with some crop tops I found on Amazon, just to give it that extra touch. Target had great dresses with the same fit and feel, but ones that I wasn’t able to find on Amazon. Check out the gallery below for photos of my favorite Target and Amazon dresses!

Now is time for the most important part- shoes! Finding the right pregnancy shoe is like finding a needle in a haystack. Halfway through the second trimester, your feet start to ache and swell from all of the blood rushing through your veins, and when going on those long pregnancy walks, it’s important to make sure your feet are taken care of. My mother recommended Blowfish! Blowfish is a California-based footwear company whose main goals are creating shoes that are both comfortable and affordable. They draw inspiration from European and Asian culture and combine that with creativity to create their shoes. My go-to shoe is the Marley It comes in almost 20 different colors, and features elastic and canvas to make your feet feel like they aren’t even wearing shoes!